In order to survive

She's been always and always ...
Try to be strong
Try to be brave
Encourage herself till the end
Try to be independent
Push herself harder than anybody else
Because she find weakness inside her
But she would never let anybody know about that

Her life is a bit complicated
Yet she always wish she has a simple life
Living her life with smile and happiness around
Sadness and Pain making her harder than before
Once she had let herself moaning and weeping around
Complaining and blaming around,
as she was thrown to the lowest into the ground

There was a time she thought she couldn't hold on anymore
She thought she's gonna give up
But there she is ...
Standing still
Pushing herself to do the best she could
Telling herself that she's strong enough to struggle
She's trying to survive

She never shows her tears
She never shows her fears
She could be dangerous
She could be tenderous
It's all in order to survive

TruST

I've never believed in the red thread.
I thought fate was something to grab.
At an incredible speed it winds around.
I've become tired of this world,
even though I've searched for the hand that will save love.

I want it to arrive. Sometime, when
I found myself through you,
from that day I felt like I could get much stronger.
Because I can be proud of myself,
I don't want to give up and
I waved goodbye at my troubling past.
I've learned for the first time
what is most important.

I feel like I've hurt you by
being lost about being by your side.
Somewhere I falsely learned
what true happiness is.
I'm going to stop paying attention to what others say.

The eternity in which I move closer
to your lips is something i've never seen, but
if it's us two, I think we can believe it
because we're not alone anymore.
Love doesn't have to end for everyone
like a long night finally breaking into dawn
I believe in myself, take one step forward,
and I feel like I can go anywhere.

By "Genevieve" dedicated to me (again) : "Believe in urself & God!"

Endless Sorrow

What if you're alone
and suddenly become blind,
and what if despite that
you kept walking forward?

Come here, take my hand

If you've only got
one wing...
Even if I only have
one wing left...

What if there was
nothing to believe in,
and what if all that's left
is despair?

Please, hear my prayers

in this era overflowing
with wingless angels.

If you are left
with no wings...
I still have one
wing left, so...
Together... together...

By "Genevieve" dedicated to me : "Be strong, Sweetheart..!"

Lonelyness

People afraid of dark. People afraid of snake. People afraid of rat. People afraid of spider. People afraid of shark. People afraid of high. People afraid of ... bla bla blaa.. But what's the most they're afraid of? It is lonelyness, "alone" in this world.

Lonelyness, the biggest fear of human being (i guess) in this journey called life.
Fear to know that there's noone else they can talk and share to.
Fear to know that there's noone else to love and to be loved.
Fear to know that there's noone else to take care and be taken care.
Fear to know that there's noone else could understand and see the real inside them and know how they felt.
Fear to know that there's noone else they can laugh and cry together along with.
Fear to know that they just all alone by themself.
'Coz the fact is, they need all of that to keep them "alive".

Are you afraid of lonelyness?
Or do you think you're better off alone?

Poem of A Desperate Girl

Ever stay up all night just to cry away the pain,
Hoping the madness and visions won't drive you insane?

Have you ever just felt the need to call up anyone in the world just to say how you feel, and want to explain how badly you wish you were real?

Ever feel like you're hiding behind a mask to hide who you really are,
Hoping the real you isn't very far?

Have you ever just wanted to ask someone who you are because you don't even know,
You've acted out some one else so many times it's for the real you too show?

Ever just want to lie in God's hands and cry for the rest of your life,
in this madness world of strife...?